In a few short months, I will end my studies at the University of North Texas and graduate with a degree that has a really long name.
I feel excited and nervous and terrified all at once. Somedays I am woefully nostalgic and other days I am a bundle of excited nerves.
I am not sure what I will do after I graduate, but I do know it will not be in Denton, Texas. I am forever grateful for college and this sleepy town. I experienced so many things that I never thought I would, I met so many people and had my heart filled and then promptly broken. My last year here was not good but I was able to fix that and will leave Denton with hopefully a good taste in my mouth and nothing but warm feelings.
Growing up I was a nervous sheltered child and at the core of my being that is still who I am. In college, I learned to be more, say more, and do more. I gained and I lost, and that is life.
Deep down I am still that eighteen year old girl in her childhood bedroom listening to Al Green and packing my books away. I am still that nineteen year old who thought she could never love again. I am still that twenty year old who fought long battles and came out with a few scars and a couple of good stories. I am that twenty one year old, laughing and loving everyone and discovering her love of whiskey.
And now I am that twenty two year old with no idea what her future looks like but has come to terms with that.
I cannot say that college was the best years of my life because I hope to God that I live a good enough life to where I don’t say shit like that or constantly try to relieve my glory years.
These years were glorious but I hope the years that follow it are even better, especially with all that I have learned and will continue to learn.
My advice for incoming college students?
- Boys (or girls) are fun but don’t let them ruin your college experience. I’ve seen this happen to too many people and almost let it happen to me.
- For the love of God, do not stress that final so hard that you resort to taking adderall and other nonsense like that.
- Call home.
- Drink water before you go out and after a long night out. (This saved my life a few times.)
- Hang out with people that don’t mind taking care of you if you drink too much.
- Don’t ever go to a party alone.
- Small loads of laundry throughout the week.
- Don’t be the reason the dining hall starts closing early. (That’s a story for another day.)
- Annnnd, take lots of pictures of yourself and your friends. You’re going to love looking back at them one day.
- Time moves slowly and then all at once. (I’ll let you figure out the meaning of this one.)